Mon, 17 Mar 2008 21:56:23 GMT

I feel like shit today. honestly. I've had to listen to a friend bitch about their "hopeless" situation, and yet want to listen to NO advice, and I pinched my husband a little *too* hard for St. Patrick's day, and now he's angry at me (I think)

even though it's beautiful outside, I wanna cry.

;_;

so....

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 04:27:02 GMT

I dunno if anyone is reading this yet, but I supposse I'll go on and get it off, seeing as it's for my own veiwing pleasure...but this drama is too good to keep it totally private :p

My family is weird. I have a lesbian mother, who half the time hates me and my sister ( her only kids), a very sick father who doesn't have alot of money and no car, and a even sicker grandmother who, tbh, our family keeps shipping around till someone gets sick of her / she dies. (But I love my grandmother, don't get me wrong with this.) I also have a 21 year old sister, who has 3, yes 3, kids. They are 3, 2, and 6 months. Sis is married to a complete redneck with about an 8th grade reading level, and he's mean as hell to her and she wants to leave, but can't. He'll go to work and leave her with a fucked up car, no money, no cell, and 3 kids. My father and grandmother will bitch and whine and moan about everything under the sun, from my weight ( I'm not *that* fat. Just a little chubby, honestly) to the fact I smoke, on to te fact that since I'm a housewife, I spend about 80% of my time playing WoW, and then on to my husband, who does nothing but work 60 hours a week and plays videogames.

And, I get stuck running around like a chicken with my head off taking care of all of them. Running my Sis here, dad there, and helping grandma outside to smoke.

and I really hate it. I wish everone would just leave me alone sometimes, and let me do my own thing. I'd like to take care of myself first, before having to take care of the rest of the family, and I'm not able to do that.

I told my husband the other day that one day I'll wake up, and I will have NO drama in my life...and he asked when that was. I told him when my family is all dead or moved far away.

first post...

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 03:51:00 GMT

this is my "secret" journal, to post shit without having to worry about my husband, or family seeing this. It's gonna be dramatic at times, and weird also at times, but thanks for reading :)

more to come in the future :)

voiceinmysoul

so....

first post...